Fullmetal-Outcast

P.S - GO FREAKIN' CHECK THIS OUT PLEASE IT'S SO FUNNY I BUSTED A GUT LAST NIGHT LISTENING TO IT



HI!! SO I'M REALIZING HOW MUCH I MISS THIS ACCOUNT.

BUT IT'S OKAY BECAUSE I ALWAYS HAVE ACCESS TO COME BACK FOR A QUICK CHECK IN. //SLAPPED

Anyway... Due to a situation I came across recently, ALL, ABSOLUTELY ALL of my work is going into storage. Those of you who I have drawn for and are still aware I kept art of your characters up [some with mine with them], if you want to keep them SAVE THEM NOW. PLEASE Ask permission if you REALLY need to repost them to your DA or another place like Twitter or Tumblr or whatever.

PLEASE RESPECT MY WISHES. OTL;;; myworksaren'ttherejusttouseasyouwishevenifIhaveforthemostpartabandonedthisaccount.

I'll be moving EVERYTHING after a few hours from now. I believe I'll still have all the images saved on my computer so if you don't catch something in time then you can just contact me here through PM. 

<3

Hey all, It's pretty simple what this journal is about.

My time is up here on Deviantart. [Well... techically in 2 days...]

I'm sad to leave, but I've neglected everything on here long enough that I know this is the right decision. I'll be clearing all of this stuff up, my page will be empty but I won't be so rude as to completely destroy the gallery attached to here. Just because I'm leaving doesn't mean the art and the history of what I have been doing have to poof. 

I still have a couple of days to think of how I"m clearing everything out... if I'll put in storage only the art work that portray only my characters and more personal art. I know for a fact the art I've done for others will remain out in the open because I know how frustrating it is to see that kind of stuff go in storage and you didn't save it because you wanted to save room on your computer. I get it, really I do.

Saying that, I might be on for the next couple of days. If you want to keep in contact, just note me or what not and I'll possibly give you the new dA account I don't think I'll use much and/or my skype or some other chit chatty things. 

Heck... knowing me it's really hard for me to just part with something. I may be back on here from time to time but I'm going to try to be on my new account rather than this one [butiknowillcheckthisonetooOTL].

Thank you for being here with me for the 7 years I've participated on this site [whether it be merely an account presence or actual chat and art being posted]. You guys are really the best ^-^

So now here, have a part of what I'm getting back into as an obsession haha!



Random self reflection:

I realize I haven't really done the art that I owe to some... But I have to tell you, I really really apologize. I don't think I'll be doing the art for you... I know at one point in time I really looked forward to it, but they have grown stale and old and thus, interest in doing these things for you have disintegrated. I don't say this in a rude way... Because honestly I still want to keep doing the requests I have... But I know me and I won't do them for unknown reasons. If you are angry at me, I understand. I wouldn't be too happy with me either. And this is a major factor of why I'm abandoning this account for good. [kinda...] If it angers you to the point you NEED to talk to me and rage at me, then please do so through a note. I'll simply apologize because there really isn't anything else I can do... except pay points back to you of course if it was a commission.

In the future, in this new account, I will avoid shoving commissions down my own throat so I leave none disappointed. In leaving some disappointed as I have done here, I have bashed and destroyed my own self confidence and self image. I'm sorry for being this way, but life is funny and I have yet to understand it for what it is. Many things have popped up that have made me either realize a lesson or completely look passed something important to the point where I make the worst decision possible. Laziness and procrastination all result from my insecurities and fear of taking a leap forward. Until I can get passed it all, I will be a wavering personality as I search for what I'm looking for. Once I find it, understand it to the fullest in my heart and not just words and thoughts, I will be a happier person than ever and I will be able to keep up with everyone that comes my way.

I love you all and to disappoint you or make you wait for something for years hurts not just you but me as well. I will get better and when that day comes, those of you who watch this account or find me later and still want something from me, I want to be able to carry out the promise I give you in art or literature or whatever it may be. And not just have it a lingering promise that empties over time.

Again, thank you for being with me, waiting for me hopelessly or even being angry with me. Everything that has happened here has pushed my life in a direction that will make me better and give me the lessons I need. 

さようなら <3